Had someone else told me I was stubborn, I wouldn't have agreed. "Who…flexible, reasonable, most-open-minded me?!
As this week wraps up, well noted is that the Master Key Experience put me right in front of my own face. Like, "mirror mirror on the wall...." At first, I wasn't all too sure what was happening; but I felt so tired and spaced-out; a lingering, subtle feeling of uncertainty. One daily exercise was to sit in meditation and 'empty' my mind for 15 minutes. In retaliation, my mind questioned if that was even possible. I chose to not "follow" my umpteen thoughts and just 'be present'.
On Tuesday, I had that amazing dream, remember? The spaced-out feeling remained. I mean, like I had no opinion on anything; the days felt effortless…no-thing was urgent! Not just during meditation, but at other times throughout the days.
I had promised to actively participate in the process…wherever it led. I had more questions than answers, some of which I shared in previous post. Then yesterday, these thoughts (let me know what you think in the comment section below. I always appreciate loving guidance):
No, I don't take kindly to being bossed around! The thing is I never imagined before that I could be the one bossing my own self around with my old habits. (It's never 'external', right? Even when the supervisor at work pushes your buttons.) As I paid attention to myself, I was noticing the many, many, many times I thought to just go back to what I knew ("miserable comfort"); my old-familiar-easy routines. Some of the regular culprits, "it's okay to pass on the reading today; do the meditation later; you're too tired -- just go to bed; you know you always get by, etc. etc." And how about this newest one, "it doesn't really matter if you break a promise to your own self -- who else would know!"
I Gotcha! (or more like Gotme!) So, who else would know? I would know! I would care! How dare me try to sneak up on myself with my stubborn, getting-me-nowhere-but-here thoughts and habits?! How long have I been getting away with this -- days, months, years?
I once heard this saying, "you need real eyes to realize!" So regardless of how long, with the Master Key Experience I'm now shaking up these old habits and they sure are putting up a lot of resistance. And so each time I realized it, I would decide to follow through and do the assignments! Why? Because contrary (or maybe not so contrary) to old thinking, feeling unsuccessful is never an easy routine! It comes with too much drama, wouldn't you agree?
From the assigned reading - Scroll 1 of The Greatest Salesman:
Only principles endure. The only difference between people who fail and people who succeed are the difference in their habits. Good habits are the key to success. Bad habits are the unlocked door to failure. Children are [servants] to their impulses; adults are [servants] to their habits. When you surrender your free will to years of accumulated habits, then past deeds pave a path that threatens imprisonment of your future. (Here's where the reading sunk it's teeth in this week) "My actions are ruled by appetite, passion, prejudice, greed, love, fear, environment, habit, and the worse of these tyrants is habit. Therefore if I must be a [servant] to habit, then let me be a [servant] to good habits…I will form good habits and become their [servant]."
And from Lesson 2, Part 22:
"The subconscious mind is the seat of our principles and our aspirations. It is the fount of our artistic and altruistic ideals. These instincts can only be overthrown by an elaborate and gradual process of undermining the innate principles."
Let's form some new good habits and become their servants. Let's choose...better yet, let's promise ourselves success!
"I always keep my promises!"
I am Empress Judith Smith, the conscious wealth creator. Through a generous scholarship into the MKE Master Mind Alliance course, I'm tapping into my Superpower - my subconscious mind - to create the life worthy of my dreams.
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