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I started writing this post in Week 16, hence 16-17HJ. This is a long post…but it's also A BIG LEAP!
In the MKE Alliance, I'm encouraged to make note of my accomplishments, things I've done/created/been a part of/experienced that I'm proud of, that made me happy, that I'm grateful for; small or large; things that may have been headliners; or that only I would know about.
But every time I go to write on my index cards, I draw a total blank! I get an empty type of feeling wherein I find myself staring at the blank cards.
And it's an old, familiar feeling; a pattern: I start out with excitement, doing well, really applying myself to whatever goal I'm reaching for; and then I seem to reach a plateau. Just like now, with my MKE studies!
I was wondering if it's a piece of the "old blueprint" rearing up, but I wasn't so sure. (Oh yeah! Maybe not in its fullest; but this is an old, familiar pattern as I just stated.)
Except for the realization that I've plateaued, it doesn't look like falling back into old habits, just that I've come to a standstill. Like stopping a car at the stop sign, and then just sitting there, not putting my foot on the gas to move on. NO MATTER HOW MUCH I WOULD LOVE TO REACH MY DESTINATION!
(Indeed, this is "falling back" into old habit; this one major old habit! I declare, be gone old blue; DO IT NOW!)
Now, the question isn't what have I done with my life; the awareness and evidence are there that much has been done. A question to ask is why then am I not finding my deeds noteworthy? Another question…and this one asked way more frequently over the years … how can I get over this hump? (how can I get pass this stop sign) … why the same thing seem to happen over and over and over?
One thing I'm darn sure of is that there is no one else blocking the intersection; no one else standing in my right of way; no other cars are stopped in front of me. When I check my blind-spot, the only thing there - casting as I turn my head - is my own shadow!
So it would appear that all is well to proceed - just go - yet, I still don't put my foot on the gas.
Then this happened! A soul-traveling, spirit-filled, real-live Earth Angel gifted me with this book --- "The Big Leap". First I thought it would be about having the courage to take a major action (like the one I'm currently contemplating). But to my surprise, it was…an answer to my questions that keep showing up in "bold".
(The Universe is friendly to my needs!)
In the book, the author discusses the "Upper Limit Problem" - aka self-imposed limitations - and suggests ways to overcome. He says that each of us has an inner setting, a determination, (a decision?) of how much success, love, creativity, goodness we allow ourselves to have and enjoy. And that when we reach that inner setting (like on a thermostat), we do or trigger something to sabotage ourselves, causing us to drop back into "old, familiar" zones (settings) where we feel secure. (Miserably secure is still secure!)
Once the setting is programmed, usually at childhood, that Upper Limit thermostat setting holds us back from enjoying the fullness of love, financial abundance, etc., etc., etc., that's rightfully ours and that we desire. And though we may function with competence or excellence, once we hit that setting, we fall back, thereby never reaching our ultimate destination - our zone of genius! Our Life of Bliss!!!
(Just now I had the vivid thought of a small animal that is standing perfectly still, or so it thinks, attempting to be 'invisible' to a predator. Uhhmmmmmmm, I wonder...!)
"The Big Leap" isn't just a book to read; it's a practical guide with exercises to help me blast through additional layers of old cement-encased beliefs. And at this point, it's the perfect complement to my Master Key studies.
The truth is when I stop to look, I'm surrounded by geniuses and others who live from their Zones of Genius! And if what I'm hearing from the Master Key Alliance is true, and I do believe it is, then I too must be a genius, otherwise I wouldn't be able to recognize it in others.
(Come on Empress, Let's Do It Now!)
And though it may seem I've been stepping forward falling back repeatedly - sssooooooo many times - It's just that I've been chipping away at the cement. And I'm so happy and grateful for my Marco Tribe for co-creating a safe place to be seen and heard.
A long-time quote applies here: "healing is a constant process!"
It's time for me to show up in my genius! Be visible, Genius! (Yes, not writing it down doesn't really make me in-visible.)
It's time to re-align, re-harmonize with my MKE lessons! And true to my previous post, I AM INDEED EXPANDING!
From MKE lessons:
Yes, I am on my own sHero's Journey; and I am Ready!
Master Love Guide
Already, I am what I aim to be!
I always keep my promises!
I am Empress Judith Smith, the conscious wealth creator. Through a generous scholarship into the MKE Master Mind Alliance course, I'm tapping into my Superpower - my subconscious mind - to create the life worthy of my dreams.
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